My friend, Miss Vickie, taught me a phrase recently. She said, “Just another pinhole of light”. She was referring to another blessing or bit of information that was given that helped me to move forward, knowing God was lighting my way.
I have to admit, I think about those words ALOT since I first heard them. They were profound and yet so simple. I remember when my children were little they used to love playing with an artistic toy called “Lite Bright”. Do you remember these? They were these flat screens that you would place coal black paper on. The paper had little white dots on it and you would take these clear gel colored pegs and push them into the little white holes. The screen behind the black paper would light up when you turned on the switch and suddenly all your little colored pegs would lite up and create a beautiful picture!
When I hear Miss Vickie’s phrase, “pinholes of light”, I envisioned my life being that black piece of paper. When I was born there were little dots all over the canvas of my life of where and what it was God had planned for me. The question became was I going to follow those instructions and dots, or was I going to do my “own thing” and pay no attention to what God had planned for me? I’m sad to say that for many, many years, I did my “own thing” and what the picture ended up looking like was alot of dark colored pegs that created a chaotic pattern across the black backdrop. The light was still there…but there was no order, or beauty in the picture.
In my thirties I realized that it was time to put those pegs of color back into the Artist”s hands. To allow Him to help me place them in the proper places. As I continue to follow His plan, I am beginning to see how He has so skillfully and artistically taken those dark colors and weaved them into an organized, bright colored, pattern. The picture is not completed yet, but I am beginning to see the beauty and the promise that lies ahead if I continue to follow His “pinholes of light”!
I have no doubt that there may still be dark colored pegs used in my final “lite bright” creation, but I understand that there must be some dark colors, in order to truly appreciate the bright spots! Both are needed to keep the final picture interesting and fluid. The encouragement here is that I now have placed my “pegs” in the hands of the skilled craftsman, Jesus. But just to be clear….He does hold all of my “pegs” but I still, from time to time, try to add my creative touch and input. He listens and sometimes He allows my desire to be placed strategically on that screen, called my life. Sometimes, He does not.
My prayer is this…at the end of my life I hope those I leave behind will be able to look at my life and see how those “pinholes of light” created a beautiful picture that shows a love for God, a love for people, and a woman that started out with a chaotic, dark future but was able to turn it over to a Artist that created a Masterpiece!
Watch for those pinholes of light every single day! They will lead your way!
ISAIAH 42:16 I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them
and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not forsake them.